Chronicles of the First Girl in the Family

gayut dgn besties

2011-12-24T20:50:00.000-08:00

ehehe dah lame tak post, actly when something really big happen, i didn't post anything at all, but bende2 cikai, nak post pulak.

well it is 12.31 pm and i just called my sweetheart besties, atin. yeah, talking to your fav one can really light up your day, well 2 days previously i was in pain, not that pain mcm teruk sgt lah, but pain that makes u feel numb enough and cried before sleep, yeah whatever, i was really in a completely different mood today because of her.

we talked for a quite long time jugak lah, about tuisyen our holiday and many things. dia holiday pegi langkawi tau, tp kesian 1 chocolate pon x mkn because tercicir kot, heee kesian awk fatin. and and dia tanye " best tak awk tusyen kat idea tunggal tu ?" hahahaha i was burst out laughing. i said " idea tunggal ? hahaha idea unggul lah awak !" hahaha

then i told her about my sad dream. i dreamt we were hanging out together and suddenly she got married. everyone was cheering up for her married, i just sitting there at the veranda with my what so called bf, guess who, it is rowand atkinson, pebende tah mamat tu menyemak dlm mimpi. i was really sad because i thought this is our last time to be hang out, to be feel like besties, because of coz after she being married, she would not be allowed to spent more time with me and she got things to carry on. uuuuu then i woke up and i felt like crying but thank god it was just ad ream. come on ! she is still really young to be married, duuuhh ~

hihi then we talked and talked and talked. <3 u :D
kenape lah kite tak same sekolah ? it will be easier if u are around and please please be in the same U with me, insya-allah.

fatin najwa binti borhannudin <3

she always brings me to the right path always, and still i don't feel angry or hurt when she does that :')

Dare To Tell survey

2011-10-09T07:18:00.000-07:00

Take this survey

What type of day are you having?
day day . urm day day

Was there anyone who "made your day"?
u mean today ? yeah mama saya masak bubur ayam plg sedap sbb sy tak boleh kunyah. uu :'(

Are you liking how you look today?
why not, i'm fabulous. ceh hehe

Do you have anyone crushing on you?
entah.takde.

Have you ever eaten a bug?
urm wait, urm naahh

Are you vegeterian?
my favorite is lamb chop and sushi, so u tell me

When was the last time you kissed someone?
i pon tak tau. kiss diri sendiri lagi best

Are you a mother or a father?
depends. haha omak lah

How many pets do you have?
3. froggy, lamby, sheepy. i sleep with them. actly they are dolls, but i pet them. haha pathetic me

What kind of toothpaste do you use?
puteri binari

Are you on any type of drugs?
yeaahhh i am high really high aaahhh, nope

Are you in love?
i pon tak tau

Have you ever been in love?
pernah

Do you even believe in love?
ade ke yang tak percaya ? mcm tak percaye je

How many things are you really thinking about right now?
one

Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today?
no

Do you like picnics?
suke sangat.

Have you finished school yet?
bolum

What is/was your worst subject?
math, additional math, physics. i know worst supposedly to be one but they are equally worst

What's your father's middle name?
bapak saya ade dua name je. bin kot ? hehe

Do you like Bush?
hell i hate him

Was his name even worth capitalizing?
tak payah

What kind of mood are you in?
ourm patrick duuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh

Are you waiting for anything?
bile kite boleh makan yang bergoreng2 ni

Are you going to bed after this?
nak mamam

Where were you september 11. 2001?
kau kesah ape ? aku pon tak kesah

What book are you currently reading?
geisha

What song did you last listen to?
wana bin edaik

How many windows are open in your computer?
5

Are you a very stressed out person?
nope

How old is your mom?
40 foxy

Has your mom ever been on television or in the paper?
pernah. dulu2 kan dia masuk roda impian, tapi..... kalah

Are you single?
no i am regular

Do you have a beach house?
waaahh takde

Where do you live?
bandar bikini bottom

Did you honestly miss Melrose place?
mano tu ?

Do you ever watch Bold and the beautiful?
hahaha mesti lawak. tak .

What is your favorite magazine?
female. playboy. hihi tak2. tak pernah bace yg p tu

When did you last go on a plane?
september ! nz baby

Do you ever want to get married?
urm yah of coz u dumb dumb

What is your favorite country?
nz. hehe tak habis2

Do you like animals?
sukesuke

Are you afraid of the dark?
actually i am starting

CLICK HERE TO TAKE THIS SURVEY!

only when i sleep

2011-10-06T09:09:00.000-07:00

You're only just a dreamboat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning
Your touch is silken yet
It reaches through my skin
And moving from within
It clutches at my breast

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams, (dreams)
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep, (in my sleep)
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep
It's only when I sleep

[Sharon & Andrea solo]

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
And clutches at my breasts...

But it's only when I sleep...
See you in my dreams, (dreams)
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

But it's only when I sleep... aaaaaaa....
Got me spinning round and round
(Turning upside-down)

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
But it's only when I sleep...

[Fade out]

The Corrs - Opening + Only When I Sleep LIVE In London 01

* skip to 1:20 and the violin time last is super mind-blowing

the unnoticeable handsomeness

2011-09-30T05:23:00.000-07:00

when u smiled, the spotlight only turned to you, surrounding was totally black out. i was like totally melt at that time, on the spot. ahahahaha. asal aku tak pernah perasan muke kau jambu sebelum ni ? ehe. tu je. takmau citer banyak2. k dah bai.

* this smile that u have done and making me fly without wings. hahaha

konfem faham rugbi ( pervert )

2011-09-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

hahaha ok video ni best and mmg pervert gila.
kalau sape2 laki yg mls nk paham rugbi rules tu, after tgk vid ni mesti bersungguh2 punye lah nak phm, tgk byk kali pon takpe. euwww awin. haha btw baju dorang mmg hot leleh.

LYNX - Rules to Rugby - NZ

all blacks vs france. victory bebeh

2011-09-24T22:52:00.000-07:00

yeaayyyyy !!!!!!!!! another victory for all blacks ! haha i know they will win this thing.
with their cute faces and their purrrr strength , ouh i know i know. hahaha.
yesterday they won with 37-17 and this was their 100th match win kot, all i know richie mccaw got the hat.
and yeah, i am an all black babe.

and this is their haka before the tournament with france
* really sexy when some of them sticks their tongue out. hehehe

pegi mampos

2011-09-03T02:05:00.000-07:00

i hate rude people. aku mmg benci org yg krg ajar. tak kesah lah dr segi mulut kau ke, perangai kau ke ape, mmg aku benci org yg mcm langsung x pnah diajar. or lack of manners. i'm sorry if my parents taught me well about manners, but i am really concern about it. no doubt, mmg bsepah org tak de adab or krg ajar kat luar sane tu, in fact 'my friends' pon mmg ade mcm tu. kalau terase tu, mmg bagus lah. look, i am okay if kau nak kacau ke gurau2 ke hahaha2 ke, but jgn lah sampai off the limit. mcm ape hal doh kau ni ? lawak sgt lah ? jgn smpai melampau, and tak pyh lah nak byk2 sgt . kalau nak gurau boleh, tp tak payah lah nak krg ajar.

ok so this is my way. when u joking around, then i laugh, that's mean ok hahaha funny i can go along with that.
but when u do shit then i go silence, that's mean stop.
and when i say shut up or stop or BODOH lah kau ni , means cut the fuck off. why is it so hard to understand, stupid. and yeah, i am not the type yg marah2 kau, buat kecoh, but dalam hati, mmg kau kne maki lah. bangang.

i msg my besties how i feel about my life, especially about my highschool, shit this school sucks, i feel like wasting my 'glory high school time' to study in this school. nothing i feel worthy. and to my surprise ramai jugak lah mulut nak kne cibai secare tak langsung. so i report lah kat my friend wawa sampai 10 page i think. then she said ' saba je dgn perangai bdk2 tu. sbnarnye kite pon same. biaselah, pergi mane2 pon akn jumpe org yg mulut xde insurans. tp ade hikmahnye, nk jadikan kite kuat lah tu. '
look, how i can depend so much on this girl ? i love u lah fatin <3 hehe thank u so much. gth rude people, and do, get a manners school to earn your manners licence

MINE YOUR MANNERS !

x pyh nak krg ajar sgt, x lawak x cool x pebenda lah sng

my real-life phone

2011-08-25T21:16:00.000-07:00

so today i'm going to blabber about my phone. yes my phone !
why in the world she wants to talk about her phone ? what, does it cost 5000, latest edition, limited edition, no edition ? no. the reason is because.. my phone gives me trouble like it is a real-life human being.
duuhhhh ? weirdo.. haha yes but unfortunately it's true, damn.

first -

it rings anywhere everywhere everywhen, u name it. i already turned it into silence, but i don't how it gets to un-silence itself and sings me to un-wish-able condition. it used to ring at perhimpunan, in the classroom and in during awkward condition. at perhimpunan, busted . at clasroom, luckily i have talkative classmates, love u guys <3 for being purposely or accidently helping.

second -

i hate when i collect my money and reload top-up, and it vanished just like that because the woman who used that number before, subscribed so many of craps. f*** u mrs.parames ! it's like i just reload rm5, after 2 secs, it goes down to 0.72. and thats why i don't top up regularly, sorry peeps who got tired of waiting my reply, please understand :-S i only top up when i found rm15 hot ticket. and yeah, this ramadhan hot ticket is expensive, seriously who cares about kfc ? when we buy top up, that's mean we want top up, not a half worth top up and a piece of chicken. duuhhhhhhhh ~

third -

i don't know whats wrong, its battery sucks nowadays. i hve to charge it in some sort of position then it will be charge, if not, na-ah. wth ? i am trying to charge u and u give me a difficult time. what, u want me to go to emergency room and pump out your life with that electric whatever. be rational phone.

i hate u so fucking damn much

2011-08-13T09:00:00.000-07:00

I HATE YOU SO MUCH !!!

u know what, i should not done it for the first time. and hell yeah, it's misreable. it is clearly not ur fault, so wth, i still wanna hate u. go away u the one who messed up me.

stupid me. i don't know why i had that thing on u for the first time, and end up have this thing on u, silly me. gosh, i am sorry for hating u innocent one. but wth, u probably wouldn't give a damn, unless you know. ehehe, fuck you !

marhaban ya ramadhan

2011-08-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT DATANG RAMADHAN !!

even dah 2 ramadhan. eleh takpelah :P

so today is 2th august, and 2th Ramadhan also. today i didn't go to school because my stomach did her usual problem. sabar je lah . but selamat berpuasa semua ! :D

hehe tu je. * baik tak yah tulis blog

love babysitting

2011-07-25T07:59:00.000-07:00

yesterday on 24 july, i've done a job i always love to do. babysitting ! yea. and that lucky baby was.. ANNAS !
~ceh lucky la sgt. dia belum ckup 6 bulan lg refer to my mom.

smlm mak dia kje mlm. so mak dia pon hntar la annas tembambom ke rumah cik syed alwi utk dijage. dan memang sudah dijangke, cik sharifah alwina yg mmg excited sgt nak jge bdk kecik tenonet tu.
well i had something for babies, i don't know why but i really love bdk kecik so damn much. e.g qushairi :') and annas .
and for addition, i want to have my own baby before i reach 23 - wehehe mude x mude x ?

ok first cik mekna kasi je annas he was ok when i carry him. but after his mama was gone. dia dh tunjuk dh muke cebik comel dia. dia dh mai dah muke cebik tu. so i was like shh shhh then he cried. bwk la dia sane sini. then my dad pulak dukung dia. dia ok jap pastu nangis balik. then kasi kat awin balik. then i know. let's go to sleep bebeh.
annas ni tido kne ade style tau. he must sleep on me, meniarap atas ku. hee comel en en en ? so he was sleep for a moment. then i decide to take him to my room so he can sleep quietly and peacefully. so i took him up stair and let him sleep besides me while i am on the phone with mizie. then dia terbangun balik. then i kasi dia susu.
dia minum susu comel :D cam ni, he turn his body to me then he plays with my elbow, my arm ouhh sweet gile. heee.. leps tu dia tidur balik atas awin. and lps tu dia tunjuk2 pintu. i thought dia nak danial sbb td ade gak lah danial dukung2 dia. rupenye dia nak keluar. dia taknak tidur lg. and then dia tunjuk2 bawah. dia nak turun.

and this is when the fun part began..

he started to play and laugh ! he sit on me when i was sitting and he really enjoyed when damia play with mirror yg bukak tutup on the wall. then awin amek anak patung harimau kecik mcm nak makan dia lps tu harimau tu terpelanting jauh. gosh dia ketawe berdekah. i was also so happy at that time. dia siap pndai arah lg. first dia tunjuk kat damia suruh main cermin lps tu dia tunjuk awin suruh main harimau lps tu damia and so on. till his mom came to take him.
his brother muaz also cam, he is 3 years old, budak muza tu. mule2 je malu. kalau dia dh tak malu nak bersuare, fuh mmg la. heee tp comel sgt 2-2 org tu. abg dia smpai keta dh jln pon still bye bye kiteorg. heee. :D

baaaaaaahhh saya annas bdk russia.

* heh mne ade russia

ni gmba first time babysit. bkn gmba semalam

in love with katy

2011-07-16T02:43:00.000-07:00

just a video. but ouhhhh this one makes her loook so adorable and cute gila. haha gilegilegile comel lah kau.

this one makes me love her even more.

GO KATY GO KATY GO KATY

When I am in Your Arms

2011-07-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

i was searching for Nancy Ajram's new song ( and yes, aku layan lagu arab ni , haha ) then i found this one. most of her song mcm fun2, and ade gak yang sedih. then i played this one, laa lagu slow ke. i want to change, then i read the lyrics omg gile. my heart was like melt, damn this song right.

sape2 yang in love tu, mmg rase fuh gile lagu ni, haaaaa bile pompuan mcm aku tgk lirik dia, "yeah that's right baby" pastu berangan memanjang. huehuehue heee. tp dpt berangan je la :-s . uuu

takpe, happy bile berangan pon aku terima. : P

psssttt hahaha

p/s sedih gile kan sharifah alwina ni

Wana Bin Edik - Nancy Ajram (English and Arabic Lyrics)

* ade subtitle english

and the thing that her mate was mute, makes this tale more romantic <3

aku nak mcm ni

2011-07-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

bapak best gile kalau dpt bf mcm ni. gile aku nak yang mcm ni. whatever i like baby. yeah baby yeah. hahaha
i got you, i don't need no body. u treat me so special so nice. yeah yeah yeah pkeciikkkk aku dh gile pathetic. aku nak ni nak ni

T.I. - Whatever You Like [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

being bullied

2011-07-06T23:51:00.000-07:00

at first this havoc begin with a girl named ASMIRA TAHARAFI. mule tu i was like ok gelak2 hahaha, lepas tu cubit2 dia.

then came a girl yang sekepala dgn dia, ENALINA. then pssstt psssstt the catastrophe shows a little spark.

when they incorporate together, the sparks starting to be lighted.

lepas tu, tiba pulak a loudly voice from HANIFAH, then boomdaboomboom
this thing changed into firework.

then the whole class join then jadi lah ini. yesterday i was really ashamed,
but today, it's getting worst. it involves the teacher also ! aduh. hahaha.

takpe2, siap korang asmira and ena. korang dua lah pendajal nye kan. tungguuu...

THE DEVIL WEAR TROPICANA LIFE

ASMOROT

ENOT

HARI KANTIN biggest booo

2011-07-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

boooooo SMK JALAN EMPAT
* this school is totally getting boring and boring. it's sucks. and yeah, it's us, the students, who be the victim of the joyless teachers.

THE HEARTLESS DEMENTOR

ok. i came to school about 10 am, well bcoz early in the morning my cutey stomach made her whiney2 problem. so i just like wth, it just hari kantin, day for fun and buy stuff and round2 and bla2. but once i entered the gate, there's her stupid voice calling me and asked me y am i late and called my mom. DUHH ! of coz la my mom defends me and i am totally right. it is such a bullshit that she wrote my name for being late at hari kantin. hey stupid, it's canteen day u biatch. i was like totally wtf ! ok then i just go ahead, i know u are the snake type since form 3.
and and the totally not-so-cool and shame part is when...
i stood in front of her. and there were 2 outsiders (boys) entering the school. and then she called them. she asked them whether they are students or ex-students. they said no. and then u noe what ? she said " sorry, this thing only open for our school, no outsiders allowed. u go " i was like a big WTFF !!
didn't she think what they feel. they must be really shame. and gosh ! where do ur sensitivity go ? thousands of people already hate our school, but this kind of shebang, gosh, i am not afraid if there will be a facebook page WE FUCK JESS. please, hate her, not us. we hate her too. so we are in the same side ok :)

and seriously, this school getting boring and boring. years before this wr totally much greater. this is totally the climax of the boredoom of jess.

THE OKAY EPISODES
1. hehehe when i enter the Fear Factor. some of my classmate organise that thing. well it is kind of fun actly. especially for me, i'm not that geli2 type. the game is like this.
u have to find keys in three boxes. 1st box, worm i thing. 2nd box, cockroaches kot, then last box, slimy frogs. euwww haha. but i'm okay, as long they do not ask me to hold a cat, a big nononono for me, fewwh.. and then u must open a box using the key u found. so i able to open it, and guess what. i have to drink air peria before i get my prize. haha ok minum pon minum lah. eden dh bayar rm 6 kot. then tadaaaa the box i chose gave me 10 ringgit. it is ok. but i want that 100 bucks ! thats the grand prize la kirenye. urm but it's okay, i have fun with it. and yeah, one boy said ' gile keras hati dia, tak geli pon' hahaha. shing >:D

2. i found ainna and dahlia, and asmira too. so i just round2 with dahlia then asmira. dahlia didn't get to play the fear factor, but asmira did ! hehehe she was yuucckkkkk ! but she didn't win anything. hahaha lucky me ! bluek2 asmira taharafi !

*pictures will be added later. mcm kure2 uploaders ni.

Blogger Contest : Shot by the Sartorialist ( FASHIOLISTA )

2011-06-29T02:34:00.000-07:00

Blogger Contest : Shot by the Sartorialist | Fashiolista

this is a contest from FASHIOLISTA about we put the things we like together and make them a list. so this is a list of What would you wear… if your picture was shot by the Sartorialist?. as more of my friends know, i am totally into pink and i am a girly girl, so i like this way of look. heee.

and if u like it, just click the pic above and LIKE, and if u are not into it that much, please kindly like it eh ? it wouldn't cost anything, but it is worth it. hehehehe. thank you so much :D

hehehehe

2011-06-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

did i go to school today ? or didn't i ? well. maybe both of it true, maybe not. ouh skip the talk. let me tell you..

well today i supposed to have history presentation with my group. and all of the handout, work sheets are with me. but unfortunately, this morning i had cherry berry ( if u don't get it, just ask me ). i am afraid i it will take a long time that i can't catch up my taxi at 7.30. but i have to get to school by hook or crook because my friends would be dead if they didn't get the handout, well my history teacher is like the firaun kind of type so i tell my mom. then my mom asked me to go to school with my father. then i went back to the toilet and let it all out baby yeah ( hahaha euwww)

then at 7.30 i woke my dad up and he agreed to send me to school. then he packed his bag because he need to go to singapore today. then i just wait him till 8.30. well, i more likely relief that we left a lil bit late. because if we left on 7.30, the prefects still at the gates and there, my name has been written in their Chronicles of Unguilty Criminals.

at 8.40 we arrived at my school gate. as soon as i stepped my foot in the school area, i saw two of my classmates. and then sho asked me " awin, u are seriously late, are u sick ? " then i answer yup. then she said, if it has been her, she would not come to school. and yeah i said, i would not come to, but that scary yet spooky pn.juneney always came up, running and shouting in my mind. then shaz says " it must been because of your history presentation right ? the teacher absent today lah " i was like wtf ! hahaha gosh i can skip my school damn it..

then sho said, " awin just go home. it's not too late, look ur dad is doing the u-turn right now, go hurry up. " so i go as fast as i lightning and stopped my dad's car. hehehe he stopped. and i told him that pn.junainah absent, so can i go home ? then my dad asked is it okay for me to skip school today, isn't the teacher going to be mad. i was like, ok, neva mind, i go to school today. then my dad said no neva mind, if u want to go home, just follow me. and YEAH i followed him lah. hehehehehe so i was at school not more than 5 minutes. heeeee

missing cutie

2011-06-21T07:40:00.001-07:00

hey archie sweety

* missing one adorable cutie pie baby makes me missing him also

missing cutie

2011-06-21T07:39:00.000-07:00

hey archie sweety

* missing one adorable cutie pie baby makes me missing him also

more cats cats cats. cats videos ( turkish van, turkish angora, persian )

2011-06-05T21:48:00.000-07:00

TURKISH VAN

TURKISH ANGORA

PERSIAN CAT (CLICK)

i want cat!!!!!

2011-06-05T04:31:00.000-07:00

ok awkward.. i am afraid of cats, i mean afraid gile. but i really adore them so much because they are so undeniable totally cute gile, and such a fun playmate. jeles tau bile tgk org tu klu sedih ke marah ke dia citer kat kucing dia. heee. lg jeles bile org tu rilek je boloeh dokong kucing sane sini. asal lah alwina ni takut sgt dgn kucing ? trust me, i myself dont know. but i really want them so much. i wish when i grow up (ceh bajet mcm mude sgt la) my Felinophobia,Ailurophobia, Elurophobia, Galeophobia, Gatophobia (fear of cat)
will shoohh shooh go far far away and i can keep a cat, and i can take a good care of

them. best nye best nye. seriously i want that to happen so much.
so lately i browse some of cats breed and three of them catch my heart violently ( ceh violently ) heee.

urm well let see those lucky cats are... (drum please) drummdrummdrummmm ( well i think that's what drum should sound)

1. turkish angora cat

2. turkish van cat ( actly i dont know the difference between angora and van bcoz they

look alike )

3. persian ( this is last choice because many people like this one, but they cant be told as not cute )

TURKISH ANGORA CAT

TURKISH VAN CAT

PERSIAN CAT

* but do you know that some turkish angora cat and turkish van cat has different eye colour on each side like this one

awesome and fabulous and fantastic and marvellous gile kan ? or as in turkish for beautiful, guzel....

tanya sama pokok. if u care .

2011-06-02T22:44:00.000-07:00

lagu best

tanya sama pokok, apa sebab goyang...
yes, ni lagu lame yg dh dibarukan. best kan ? mcm smoothhh gitu..
layan lah kejap lagu ni. try lah dengar
i got this song when my ex-classmate send this to his friend using fb. ala biaselah tu. mesti kite nk sebuk dgr punye kan ?
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if u care
i am kindly hate you right now. thanks for everything. from the start u really want to go right ? so go. sometimes i think u never sincerely be friend with me. there always something in your mind.. i should notice that earlier. but now i realize it. thanks for everything again.
i'm sorry if i am over the top, rude or cruel. u really had been nice to me. it just i can't take it when this kind of thing happen. u already pushed my limit.

2011-05-30T03:55:00.001-07:00

sumpah kau memekak

u are my shy shy boy

2011-05-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

i thought this crush was just a biase biase crush. but gile ah, just one thing that looks quiet not right, makes me simply think way to many things, bad things. eeee hahaha. he's not that hot hot chicken pop kind of guy. infact, he's the most unoutstanding boy, i think he's the last guy's name i knew in my class. can you imagine that ? he's super duper shy, and that wat attracts me to think he is super duper fucking cute. wahahaha. he's weird, and that's what i like because he is totally different. muehehehe. uuuuuuu... gile awin gile.
i told my bestfriends, and most of the reaction is the same " WHAAAAAATTT!! DIA TU ? SERIOUS ?"
hihihihi. one of them siap pukul2 lagi kate ape lah kau ni. hahahahaha.

i think i might have that 'something' for someone

2011-04-22T09:05:00.000-07:00

is it awkward that i kind of interested with guy that different, or strange as people might say. well, it is nothing the same like the guy i wished when i was younger. hehehe whateva lah, so far, i know i'm fond to strangeness and uniqueness. well, hehehehe..

i had this kind of thing when someone i like (well not like like like, just admire a little bit, because of his strangeness and weirdness), say something to me, just like a fucking single word, that totally means nothing, i will go like this => face turns to red, my hand will start to be like fan ( even i don't know what the function is ) my breathing will go up go down go up go down. and then nothing happen afterward. haha psycho !

well, when i like someone, i really don't think it gonna go anywhere well because, he'll never knew. cehh wahh.. hehe. so, i create a way to avoid liking him. i will think he might thinking negative about me like ' apahal pompuan ni, ade mslh ke?' 'muke mcm tu nk minat aku' 'sorry lah bkn type aku' or whateva that will eventually make me feel angry to him. so sooner or later, i will stop liking him. i stop liking him because of the negative thoughts that came from him that is totally created by me ! genious isn't it ?

hehehe ala anyway chill lah. i'm not that kind of girl who el desperado, mcm stupid lps tu tak psl2 nangis uuuuuuuu.. no no no no. but, klu dapek apo yg diidamkan fuh mawar khayalan ~

makin lame kau makin ngade2 la pulak kan

2011-04-12T07:19:00.000-07:00

hambek kau. aku rse ni lah title post aku yg plg pjg. utk kau si annoying irritating gile kuase tah ape punye haprak rules kau buat. mmg lah kne ikut peraturan sekolah, tp dh klu rule kau buat main suke hati ikut sedap kau, baik x pyh la kan.

ok first. psl tudung.
ok lah fine aku ni freehair so maybe org pk aku ni ligat lah sgt nk ikut. tp eh tlg ah, kwn aku yg pkai tudung skali semua complain, nk lg sedap, cikgu pj pon complain.
1.mule2 sume ok je pkai tudung ape2.

2. lps tu kne pkai tudung plain, takleh pkai batu2. fine... sume org pkai mcm tu, even ade org yg takde tudung gitu pndai pk nak terbalik kan tudung biar side batu tu x nmpak. nmpak tak terserlah nye kekreatifan kiteorg masing2 ?

3.then pkai tudung kne tutup dade, turun kan bwh. takpe2, ikut je. kite ikut kite ikut. (mcm sekolah agama pulak dah, tau lah cikgu jeles kiteorg ni solid molid. hahaha.) *cikgu pon pkai tudung lilit sane lilit sini, pusing sana pusing sini takpa...

4. he'eh ni nk start dh dye punye auta. x boleh pkai tudung kangkang. boleh je pin kan.

5. dia nak gak suroh org beli yg bjahit kat koperasi tu. nmpak sgt nak duit lah kau kan. klu ok x pe, kwn aku pkai sume ckp mcm singe punye rmbut, gerbang2. eh ckgu pj aku pon ckp, tudung tu tak sesuai utk pj, kang lari2 kedepan tudung tu haa, x nmpak jln2, silap2 boleh je terbukak ke depan. beli kat luar yg bjahit, eh, dh ade tudung blambak kat umah, yg kau nak suro membazir beli tudung semata2 nak pj tu apahal kau weyh ? lps tu blh pulak dye ckp ' klu nak fashionable ckit, beli kat luar, beli kat ariani tu. ' Watafart lah. tudung ariani tu tundung indon, tudung g pasar tu haaa nak beli ikan nk beli sayur. takyah buat lawak ah, kau pkai lah dlu kan.

ok second psl bju pj.
skolah ade baju sukan ade bju koko. dlu rilek je boleh pkai bju koko kan. skrg asal kne pkai bju sukan je tym pj ? takleh pkai baju koko dah. eh, fyi wahai puan, mostly skrg kelas pj 2 hari berturut2 (including mine), dh pkai bju pj first day tu, esok nye nk pkai ape ? masalah nye skrg pulak kalau tym pj tak pkai bju pj kne merit lg. nmpak tak kekejaman nye ? nk pkai bju tu busuk2 ape ? so skrg ni kne beli 2 bju sukan lah kan ? tu yg kau nk kan ? kan ? asal x leh pkai bju koko pulak ? ape mslh nye. huish bala - bala

tak nmpak ke kronologi penindasan dan penjajahan dye. ape point dye haa ? mcm eisshh. dia ah aku rse satu2 nye cgu disiplin yg org plg meluat tgk, yg lain takde pon, klu ade pon, ckit2 je lah.

tgk ah, aku report kat sape2 karang, tgk ah tgk.... tgk tgk tgk ah.. tgk je lah tgk....

Berhenti Berharap

2011-04-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

BERHENTI BERHARAP.

what do i care what ppl will say. this is what i want to write.
as the title, that is completely define how i am right now. mls ah. not that i stop hoping from someone, it just i don't want to put any hope on anyone. semua tak leh harap, mcm knl je ayat ni. hehehe. tak lah, takde lah smpai mcm tu kan. just want to stop for a while, rest kejap la katekan. hmm :) :(

* i hate when someone make us feel guilty and bad, then we feel like we are the cruelest, then we cry thinking how fucking bad we are, in the end that person not that into us. kite je yg terperasan lebih, mcm bangang. haha. that shows how stupid we are, and that is what i hate.

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

which one

2011-03-23T08:01:00.000-07:00

do something that u reallyy want to do but u should not, or do something that u have and should do but u hardly will and have to sacrifice.

u u u

2011-03-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

i love u my BLOOB BLOOB !

he gave this one for me. well i don't know la if he did this by himself, but the sweetest thing is he gave me unexpectedly, tiba2 je. dh lame tak contact then dia bg. i'm so sorry. i know i'm not such a good friend and i have to appreciate u more.

u are the best guy bestfriend ! best man. in western, they might called it as my gay bestfriend, but u are straight, so i shouldn't call u that. heee. u have the best for me . thanks :') i never want to lose you.

danish got this one for me :D

2011-02-26T20:57:00.000-08:00

DANISH : he is my younger brother. age 7 years old.

dia ni best tau. hehehe. untung sape jd kakak dia, like me ! sbb dia igt kakak dia yg baik ni, klu pegi mne2 je mesti bwk something. selalunye keropok la. byg kan, ni bru umo 7 tahun, klu dh besar nty ? hehehe msti lg best.

hr tu my family pegi genting, except for me and danial. balik genting tu je, danish kasi 1 anak patung kambing biri2. yeay ade org tau alwina ni suke kambing biri :'D

well these are the pictures of my new toy <3

heeeeeeee. comel kan ?

nak dgr satu citer tak ? smlm, dorang baru balik dr terengganu. then danish ckp la. report la pot pet pot pet.

danish ckp ' td danish tgk ade patung kecik2, tp kedai sume tutup. lps tu ade patung pucca byk, tp danish tgk dr luar tmpat kaca tu je. sbb kedai dia sume tutup. '

best kan ? hehehe. tp danish ni klu mknn dia suke, mmg kedekut. thank you :DD

p/s : AKU BANGGE ! haha

i really like him :DDDD

2011-02-26T02:21:00.000-08:00

comelcomelcomel

the woman i want to be

2011-02-25T21:44:00.000-08:00

honestly. sejujurnya. this is the girl i want to be.

ok. some of you may think, buang tebiat ape awin ni, merepek tibe2 ni. hahaha. think what you want to think.

i wish to be a girl that every good guy may dream of. a girl that listened to them, lemah lembut, sopan santun, senang cerita semua ciri gadis melayu lah yg sejati. hahahaha. 'ape hal kau ni dowh ? buat lawak terkencing2' me myself pon pk mmg lawak. but this is serious, i am totally honest, no kidding. i want to be the girl who u proud of. who u can show to people, and no need to say anything, just smile and your eyes full of joys. i really want to be that way. i want to be the woman when my man see, his problem will be automatically swift away, his tiredness just disappear. i don't want and starting to hate man who always talk about sex sex sex and sex.

i am working on it, and try to be that girl. besides, i dont think i'm a wild child, naaaaahh. tak pon. ceh ! tp betullah.

trapped . something .

2011-02-25T07:14:00.000-08:00

i am stuck in the middle, again !
now biarkan lah. it's my own fault, nobody's fault. so i have to handle this by myself. i have to face the music.
-fin-

sbnrnye . dlm diam . aku ade something. utk kau. and . taknak org lain tau. and taknak kau tau. tgu the perfect time. and. please. be. reality.

run baby run baby run

2011-02-22T08:36:00.000-08:00

ni bkn kes lari rumah, even runaway does have a beautiful meaning. ceh ~

ni psl larian amal. same mcm merentas desa, maybe ni merentas desa, ataupon ade lg satu merentas desa, ataupon tidak, kne buat 2 kali. ape2 lah. hahaha

well pengenalan trek hari tuh, fuh ~ pnt masyaallah. first time kan lari, then terus jauh2 pulak. ainna dgn amboi asyik nk lari je. dahlia tak dtg tym tu.

then hr sabtu tu pulak, baru la larian amal betul2 punye. yes! kaki dah tak sakit dah. dh kne train dh kaki ni. tp kaki ainna pulak sakit. dahlia pulak hamboi lari, stamina punye la kuat, tau lah msuk swimming kan.

well nothing happen sgt, sprti yg dikatekan org, ' hah ! awin kau lari ? bkn boleh mng pon.. ' hahaha yelah2 ngaku. mmg tak mng pon. tp best tau :D

ni tgkap pic botol air ni sbb dorang sume ta kasi amik gmba dorang, (sombong kan ?)

dahlia jolie :}{

again, beg and bottle

hehehe.. dapat gak gmba ainna <3

yah ainna tembam

dorang 2 bukak kasut sbb kaki cramp or something. sbaik jln tak pns

muke penat + moody + ergghhh lepas habis lari.

it is fun !

dah lame ta amek mende ni

2010-11-29T01:49:00.001-08:00

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1. First thing you wash in the shower?
my hand

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
white, white pink kitten kot

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
err lupe last person sape

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
kind of great

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
the lights on my wifi punye bende tu

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
any different ?

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
hehehehe

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
nope !

10. What are you craving right now?
kambing bakar

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
kubis ? bkn eh ?

14. Are you emotional?
nope. but i am sensitive. big different tu

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
takde kje

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
i lick it. ta nak abes cpt sgt la

19. Do you like yourself?
hehehehe

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
pernah. nora danish <3 22. What are you listening to right now?
hanyut faizal tahir <3 24. Are your parents strict?
boleh la

25. Would you go sky diving?
naknaknak !

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
tak nak la. mesti ta halal

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
hehehe klu boleh ....

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
my sepit rambut

30. Do you rent movies often?
never

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
errrrrrr tara. sebaik tukar dah. syamila :)

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
nope, but my brother like it

33. Do you own a gun?
stapler gun boleh ?

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
i sleep with my nenek tonight

39. Ever been in love?
being in love now <3 40. Do you have a cell-phone?
jgn lah tnye

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
i'll ask her, you wait eh

45. Ever have cream puffs?
pernah
47. What was the last question you asked?
'What was the last question you asked?'

49. Boys or girls?
who ?

50. What is your bus number for school?
i go to school by taxi pakcik salim

51. Is your hair curly?
ha'a mcm onion ring a&w tuh

52. Last time you cried?
semalam semalam. nangis kegembiraan :'D

53. Ever walked into a wall?
ape kau ni ?

54. Do looks matter?
ha'a kot ....

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
pernah . jaga - jaga

57. Favorite time of the year?
12.2 and 22.3 and 2.8 oh my god ! sume ade 2

58. Favorite color?
pink !

59. Are you sarcastic?
naah

60. Do you have any tattoos?
nooo

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
tak ade lah

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
at my bedroom

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
likey

65. Do you like your life right now?
likey

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
oftenly

67. What is your favorite animal?
fat white turkish angora cats. but i'm afraid of cats :s

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
his shirt

74. What are you wearing?
pink t-shirt with black and whit kain batik

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
hehehe pernah. mse kecik2, dh besar ni karang roboh pulak

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heart

2010-11-28T08:43:00.000-08:00

<3 this. no more regrets.

please don't go

this song pergh

2010-11-23T07:28:00.000-08:00

hahah takde perkataan dpt ku ungkapkan lg

excited enthusiastic !

2010-11-14T08:44:00.000-08:00

hahahaha. i really don't know why but lately i am so happy, i mean not happy as u are not sad, this is really way up beyond happy, and err i dont know why. so what ? we don't need any reason to be happy right ? crazy ? then go sad suddenly, it will make u look much more crazier and it does not feel much better than joy.

lalalalalalala. since yesterday i keep singing. hahaha and those who heard i sang, u guys are truly lucky coz it's hard u know to hear i sing, auwwww hahaha boom boom boom even brighter than the moon moon.

we all are firework, we all gonna show the world what we worth with our colors, just light up our dynamite

when we feel like we can't move a muscle, just close your eyes, live, and pusing2 then u will be flying like a G6

say what ? are u complaining ? ouh ouh ouh stop with ur blah blah blah

because we are who we are

and this is my life and i'm gonna live my teenage dream :DD

i love u, who ? all of you sayangs. nak perasan pon tak pe, because sincerely love u guys ( even without i'm knowing ) <3

depressed. thank you. better.

2010-11-13T06:47:00.000-08:00

depressed

eeiiiii sakit nye hati. ya allah, rse mcm nak belasah je budak2 tu. dorang main phone rekod vdeo tah ape2 berlambak sgt smpai delete sume video lain. video qushairi sume dh hlg ! ni kalau aku sepak ni sedap. frust giler dgn dorang bebudak ni la, sebaik ada gak perasaan kasihan dkat adik, klau ta, mmg dorang kne himpap la dgn kakak sulong dorang ni. alaaaaaaaa dah la susah nak jumpe budk kecik qushairi tu, sayang gile la kat dye. skrg jgn panggil dye baby, dye dh besar, ampat tahun maaa, kne panggil dye ABANG ! heeee syg love u mmuuaah.

thank you.

u are my male bestfriend that i feel safe the most, i mean it's hard for a girl to find a boy that sincerely be her bestfriend without any bad intention, but u aren't, that's what i feel, u are truly nice to me. u always be there, u are the one who i always open up my problem, u give me the shoulder when i want to cry, since 3 years i think. THANKS. but i don't want u to be down, i know u are right now, but please, i hope it's not my fault. i never have intention to ruin ur day, to make ur life feels like fuck, i hate this ! seriously, jgn susah hati. cheer up like u always did to me, hafiz :)

better.

u are better now. and i really like it, i mean love it, i mean uh ta tau nk ckp ape. thanks sgt2. hahahaha aish makin comel pulak dye hahahaha lalalalalala. but kdg2 kan, dye ni semacam tau, citer psl kentut ah itu la ini la, hahahaha k dah stop. i want u to be this way forever and i want to be the perfect for u, mizie <3 please, don't change, that's what i fear the most.

*ps : dahlia nik nabilah ainna dya fatin nabilah h fali syafiqah miza kau hebat !

ouh urm urgh

2010-08-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

i've got 48% for math. i thought i'll get more than mid year. carelesss and ta pndai punye psl.
but for what nak nangis kan, but mmg down la kan. i have to admit it. sape yg ta down. but it's my own fault.

i have to work harder. eh nabilah nk aja math, dye kate nk kasi tusyen free. nice kan ? haha thanks nabilah.
then nik pon, thank you coz slalu aja math to me. guess it's hard to sit next to me when math kan. almost everything aq tnye dye. but when she teaches me i understand it. cikgu ajar pon same.
then dahlia, thank you coz rajin tlg tgk kan mane2 answer yg boleh dpt kan marks lebih, even tak ade pon, but thank you so much. u guys ni really good friends. thanks sgt2 tau.
just my fault la kan yg ta exercise, phm 2 phm but if phm ta exercise lupe jugak kan.

xpe, i have my backup plan, my friends lol. haha korang sudi kan nk ajar kan math. suka sama korang la bebeh haha.

my god, i have to study harder faster better stronger

tomorrow

2010-08-15T02:56:00.000-07:00

tomorrow ouh tomorrow.
my hearts when dup dap dup dap.
can't we just stop the time now, or can't we just pass the 5 days.
alahai takut nye. argh, prepare pon rse nye belum ni.
alah cancel je la ? haha boleh ?
bismmillahirahmanirahim

may Allah bless all of us .

may all of us can answer the trial confidently, correctly and on time.

may we've got good marks, i mean marvellous.

amin ya rabbal al-amin

tak kesian pon !

2010-08-02T04:51:00.000-07:00

hey, guess what ? aq ta kesian pon dkat si perempuan 2.

in fact, sape je kesian kat kau ? haha.

2 namenye balasan. lepas kau dh krg aja dgn cikgu, kau buat cerite kat bapak kau, bapak kau kate ustazah BITCH, and then kate kau dpt A pon bkn sbb cikgu, sbb kau usahe sendiri ? ha'a mmg kau dpt A bkn sbb cikgu, sbb kau dpt paper bocor kan ? kiteorg semua nmpak la yg kau hafal jwpn kat paper before exam then kau main fon kan tym 2? dh la buat slh, nk belagak pulak 2, then buat cerite lg.

buat slh then diam boleh la dimaafkan lg. oh ya, kau nk bangge rite ? skrg kau dh ade kat sane kau bangge lg x ? uish bangge nye ~

aq dnga citer kau kne bang 2 aftr kau date dgn balak kau en ?

but itu baru ape yg kau dh buat kat ustazah. yg before2 ni ? kau hanta gmba 'sexy' la konon kat laki then kau tuduh kwn kau yg sebar kan 2 ape ? dow, kau yg kasi kat jantan kau nk slh kan org lain. haha. cube pk, mcm mne kwn kau nk dpt pic 2 klu kau ta kasi kat dye ? if kau kasi kat dye, ape point kau nk hntar gmba cenggitu kat perempuan ? terang2 la beb, coz balak kau yg bgtahu sendiri kat org kau yg hantar 2 stupid.

itu gmbar. how about ur virginity yg .. ? haha aq ta mau citer sbb aq jge gak la org lain nye malu.

tgk, aq jge gak kau punye malu kan ? klu kau ? kau pernah jge kau punye malu ?

i really hope he will marry u coz kau dh ta lyk utk mne2 laki dh. u guys suits together ! in a bad way, i mean worst. i hate you and bile kau nk diberhentikan sekolah beb ?

palestine !

2010-07-24T20:51:00.000-07:00

some people laugh if they invited me to eat at MCD or KFC or etc. and i said i boycotted them. well, maybe they just dont get it, or maybe i'm just overreacting, but, that is the least i can do. just think people, have u done anything to help them who are struggled in war, who lost their families, kids who didn't get education, little girls who are supposed to be mothers, if they were vanished by the war, i think our children in the next generation would not find Palestine in the world map. haha. alwina sentimental nye kan ? but hey, i'm trying to be myself. boycott is the least i can do, or most people can do. am i right ? is it so hard ? try to put ourselves in their shoes.

pernah ta korang tgk budak2 palestine ? dorang comel tau, i mean beautiful. dorang ade mate besar dgn bulu mate lentik gile, but with a heart that scared, scared if they will lost their mothers, cried when hearing the loud noises of bombs, miss their dads who go jihad in the war. just think, ni ke yang patut budak kecik risau kan, yg patut budak kecik nangis kan ? kite dulu kecik2 takut bile tym blackout, nangis klu gado dgn adik, and things that little kids suppose to feel. not the way like the Palestinians little children should feel and fear.

this video is about a girl, who went picnik w her family, then when she came back she saw her family were scruplesless killed. the pain can be seen by her scream.

and this video is about a girl reading a poem about palestine. she's a Palestine girl, a little girl who could cry just by reading a poem about her own country.

reporter

2010-07-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

ko pehal ? pasal nk sebuk hal org ? klu sebuk 2 ok lg, tp bab2 nk g report 2 dh lebih ar.
go get ur own life. i have my life and i am enjoying it, so dun try to disturb mine if u couldnt enjoy urs !
actly ni bkn first time kan, dlu pon ko ade men report2 kan. then ko report bnde ta clear pon, last2 aq kne gak un. bodo sial dow.
tym dlu 2 aq try lupe un and respect ko balik un, then ko ta serik2. 2 mcm kental la. pehal 2 ?
aq ade kcu hidup ko ? ta ade kan. mnde yg ko buat 2 igt aq ta tau la, tp aq ta nak cite sbb aq mls la dow. no big deal. ape aq dpt ? ape ko dpt report2 ni wey ? just stop it la. i can't take it anymore.
skrg aq dh ta ley itu ta ley ini. sdgkan proof yg ko kasi pon blur la dow, yg terima report ko pon bgus, caye bulat2 ckp ko.

g b l a l a !

untuk ank cik rahim

2010-07-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

anak cik rahim. finally i found a song that suits u very well.

I comfort him and I baby him
Or He tells me I've changed on him.
I become upset, my temper rises
But all He cares about is How to Please Him.

Go and Tell Him that I am also sometimes in moods.
One time I am upset, One Time Im ready to give him my eyes.
Who out of us is at there best at all times.
He makes me tired, and makes me want to pull out my eyes.

If I get upset from him and I be the bigger person
He says I am ignoring his feelings and he takes a stand
And If I explain to Him he says Im accusing Him.
And continues to make me feel 100 times guilty.

I am changing
His mind is so small confused my heart with him

But I love him so much.

And that is what made me patient with him so long.

i hope u know how i felt on u

-rawrr-

tired ok !

2010-06-25T23:41:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder why there are hell so much psychopath and GILE SEX nowadays. u think girls like la bile korang hnta those noty msgs. hey ! we feel like u think we are cheap . do u like when people think u r cheap ? u dont rite, or do u ? bkn sume girl mcm kiteorg ni murah la. kiteorg punye harga diri are way much higher than some of those wear tudung but no price at all. not all ok ! but really, jgn amik ksempatan ats pompuan. ta gentleman name nye la. that's what we call KENTAL la bodo. is it hard 2 respect women ? if dh gile sgt, kawen la. or u g je kat rumah pelacuran 2, langgan the bitches, haaa dorang yg offer body pon kan, then bile dh dpt hiv or aids 2, serves u right !

not all women stupid la. not all women mudah terpedaya dgn pujuk rayu. seriously. but neva eva amik ksempatan, u dont want right to be called laki ni mmg sume amek ksempatan ? so dun be la ok

i hate u

2010-06-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

i hate u. aq benci kau benci benci benci ! dh ta nak tlg ko lps ni. i hate u la !

backstabber-guilty plessure

2010-06-18T10:31:00.000-07:00

i have a confession to make. i have done something bad, wait, maybe terrible. it's not what i did was terrible, it was no one would do what i've done, only a backstabber would. but, i dun think i'm that bad, because what i did got permission ok. but she didn't noe the real story, the details one. omg. please forgive me.
but that what i called ~~guilty pleasure.~~

scene that makes me cry watching

2010-06-10T08:09:00.000-07:00

this scene really touches my heart ! HAHA ! even it is cartoon. tp sedih btul. seriously. i cried was watching it. such a romantic couple. and a man who loves her wife madly. really2 touching i tell you.

teletubbies haha

2010-05-14T19:44:00.000-07:00

i dunnoe why but currently i like to watch TELETUBBIES ! i guess i miss them lor. suda lame ta tgk. here some videos i can't stop giggle watch.

heeee. aren't they just adorable ?!

backup

2010-05-07T19:08:00.003-07:00

if the one u love the most ignores u and let u down, the world isn't end yet. just stand up and look people besides u, those who u ignored all the time, those who u thought not that important, those u left behind just because want to pay attention for one man,they will always there for u no matter what u've done. they help me to heal, to breath again, to satisfy my life, to know that not only one thing i'm yearning for and need to live.
he's the one who cheer me up when i thought no more happiness.
now, he's the one who i can open up all my stories.
sorry for ignoring u, for left u behind.
thank u ! thank u my best friend ! :D
dedicated to FISH and my truly besties

backup

2010-05-07T19:08:00.001-07:00

for you !

2010-04-23T21:44:00.000-07:00

i do need him
i do love him
but dye 2 suke buat org sakit ati la
i just want to do something then bru boleh lega.

hmmm. i want to slap him, just once, but the hardest slap i can give.
tp dye sakit un nti. k ar. i want to slap him not that hard, but byk2.
mne lg ok ? dun want la. i want to do both !
then lps 2 i'll be satisfied and i will apologize to him.
no la. not yet.
i want to pull his hair until he scream. yes baby. haha.
then i want to punch him debush2.
then i will apologize.

i dare to do this because i know i'm weak and he's strong, so no big deal rite ?

heee.. but sesakit2 hati ni, kesian jugak kat dye klu buat mcm 2.. tp ta pe r, nti lega hati ni, x de la revenge ape2 kan. but he's nice though.

hey soul sister

2010-04-16T10:28:00.000-07:00

this song delighted me. no matter when i'm not having a good day.

satellite heart

2010-04-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

actly there's a reason why i put this song.
only those close to me know why
i mean really close

So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of a young heart!
What a pity, what a sham
What's the matter with you, man?

Don't you see it's wrong, can't you get it right?
Out of mind and outta sight
Call on all your girls, don't forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise!

I'm a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I'm spun out so far
You stop, I start
But I'll be true to you

I hear you're living out of state, running in a whole new scene
You know I haven't slept in weeks, you're the only thing I see

I'm a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I'm spun out so far
You stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I'm a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I'm spun out so far
You stop I start
But I'll be true to you no matter what you do
Yeah I'll be true to you

it's over but with a win-win ending

2010-04-04T01:43:00.000-07:00

now i'm on my own
we just last for 1 year, 1 month and 3 weeks.
thanks for being everything and i'm sorry for everything.
tp thankfully ta de gado2 n everything was smooth.
we still being friends. and i know we better like that than always feeling unsatisfied.

i stand up and have to move on right ?

yea ! hahaha. i dunnoe y but i'm feeling happy.
i know he feels happy to.

tomorrow

2010-03-21T07:47:00.000-07:00

tomorrow. many thoughts about tomorrow.

1. cuti dh abes, bdk skola dh kne skola balek la
2. sape yg ta siap hw, better make excuses first. make sure u make many of them !
3. i have to face my classmates. muke tembok ! yerla coz the party date keep changing, but nvm, i'm a strong lady. haha.
4. yea ! my birthday. this year is better than last year. so i hope for the becoming day, it will be amazing. i love u guys. sentimental lak. ala bia la.

2010-03-17T11:07:00.000-07:00

belajar betul2 . i know u can do it. i'm fine, i know u are having ur exam. smue bdk u skrg stress kan. nvm . do ur best tau. miss u. ahmad tarmizir bin rahim. heee

lalala ulalala

2010-03-16T03:58:00.000-07:00

rite now i don't have 2 worry about that lamb

i have him, my bdk besa, 2 pampered me
2 treat me
he always there
haha best nye
lalalala

lantak la dye pggil org dak kecik ke
dak besa dak kecik dak besa dak kecik
swingswingswing

sore dye sdp tym nyanyi lgu kau dan aku
my lullaby.
tym morning he's my alarm clock geeeee

rawrawrawulalalamamagagaga
alwina dah gile

finally i'm empty

2010-03-11T23:10:00.000-08:00

i feel like i don't care anymore.

i don't want 2 put any hope on him.

it is better, because i'm always down when i expected something in him

it's not his fault, i know.

he's busy. Fine, go ahead do your work, don't care about me anymore

seyesly, i don't care whether he cares about me or not.

when i can't depend on him anymore, finally i realise not only him i can depend on.

i have my friends, my besties.

it's my wrong to put so much hope in him.

the more i deal with him

the more i compromise him

the more i understand him

the less i can hold it on

the more i miss fiq

i just keep remembering that guy never make me angry

me tears never drop when i'm with him

i never want to let u go

but things already happen right

it's weird because u r the only one who i'll keep missing even when i have someone else

u made me forgot about him the one-before-u

but the others couldn't make me forget u

yeah, sometimes they can

when they really get into me, i only think about them

but not often all those guys get into me

only sometime.

it's my fault to miss him

but is it my fault too when i'm missing the only one who knows how to treat me well when my man ignore me ?

down . bday

2010-03-07T00:55:00.000-08:00

DOWN

where is he right now ? why doesn't he answer my call. k, that evening he called me, but i was sleeping. if he has to go somewhere, sms la. i donnoe. i donnoe what to feel. i think i don't have to scold him. just let he be himself. ouh. everything's ok, i know.

BIRTHDAY PARTY

this saturday, 13.3.2010 we're having my bday party, pool party. but not at my home. everyone is invited. lailailai. bring ur swimsuit klu nak mandi. anything, contact me k !

that's all

sang a song

2010-02-06T23:44:00.000-08:00

hey, last nite i made my own personal record.

i sang to him. heeeee. malu gile, shy3.

dh dye pkse un, klu tak nti dye kol siang2 sje nak cari psl

so org nyanyi la un

byk lak lgu org nyanyi

remix punye-campur2.

haha

hmmm. he knows exactly how to cherish up thing

luv u yunk. weee

lps 2, this friday dye cuti, YEA !!!

bkn sbb dye balek je epi

bcoz that friday is a really meaningful day 2 us

omg

hmmm

so long rite

the longest i've been and the sweetest

kasi love sama kamu.

>i'm flying flying flying like an angel lalalalala

god ! this year

2010-02-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

i dunnoe la why, but schoolboy this year mcm sje nak tjuk bega ! kjap2 gado. damn ! then, ade la sorang ni suke je cari msalah, itu la ini la. honestly, risau ! but donnoe y. i think there's no reason to give a reason why i'm worry ok ? stop it la, this year exam kan > helloo. lupe ke ?

then, hey, ade jalang kelas aq. hahaha. jalang bitch sial bodow pig, smue ade la wey. k, nak tau sape ? mey cni aq bgi kriteria dye. 1. klu korang tgk pun mmg tau la dye jalang. 2. ta der ~~boobs~~. hahaha. better u couple w ur friend, bap*k siam 2 ! haha.

mmm ade kan sorang bdk 2, he catched my eye today. tym nga mkn burger uh, elok2 nak hisap sos yg jatuh kat tgn, tpandang dye noticing me. haha. perasan2 gile babeng awin ni. i think 1st tym i saw him wearing bju jumaat. he's nice rite ? one of my friend said he likes the korean boy's attitude, eventhough ta mnat korea2 ni, OK la 2 ! ouhhh - mind ur status awin !

with him, everything just fine. but.. me myself feel like.. arh nothing.

swing swing

2010-01-17T03:44:00.000-08:00

just a day b4 yesterday i told him i dunnoe wut 2 achieve n wut 2 cherish in my life anymore.
i dunnoe wut my dream anymore. i just want to surf my life n just follow the path.
but now, hepi balek ! da tau ape yg diinginkan! suda pndai berangan balek. weeeee
hehe. he's better know. i love him the way he is, rite now.
hmmm. waaahh. swing swing, swing the spinning step
u wear those shoes and i will wear that dress.
ooo. kiss me. lalalala

best kan lgu ni ? hepi jew.

my study is really important. seyesly, jd bdk baik taon ni, hmwork smue siap ! haha
ta caye sudah la.
but.. math kiteorang blum blaja 1 mnde pun. cgu ta msuk. dh la si alwina ni punye math ~~POWER~~. slalu dpt pen merah je markah. huish. hax. but mintak2 ok la kan this year. jum rmai2 amin..

GAMBATEH ! heeeeee

apologize. blessed.

2010-01-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

1. hmmm. i'm sorry coz last nite i did that 2 u. i just want u to feel what i used to feel, just wanna give u a lesson. but, i think i was so harsh on u. i realize that i can't let u feel that way, when u said it's up to me what i want 2 do 2 u 2 get me satisfied, i knew i have gone 2 far. i was cruel, wasn't i ? i love u, now we r draw. n i have forgotten the not-so-good things that u have done to me. i hope it will be same 4 u too. now we start a new chapter, start over again. : ) <3

2. no one has ever treat me the way u treat me. seyesly, u r one in a million. but, i dunnoe wut 2 do now, someone who i really2 love are not comfortable about us, u r my friend, but u treat me way better than a friend should get. thanks a lot, i really appreciate u. ta pna ad org offer awin utk tmn un awin mlm2, slalunye bile awin mintak org tmn, msti ta boleh, but u r opposite. i want to thank u so much. awin ta tau la ape yg boleh awin buat utk balas balik. thank u so much. for everything. i hope u always there for me like u r now.

these are for 2 men who are really important 2 me.

messed up

2010-01-02T00:53:00.000-08:00

BEST FRIEND

i've done sumthing wrong. but i didn't mean, i just want to apologize. but when i did that, another prob came. nape pompuan 2 wey ? dye patut la tau un balak dye sygs gile kat dye. but hey ! he's my bestfren k, i know him longer than u, bak kate org, mkn garam dlu la ! yg nak jeles wat pe. bengang ni bengang. sensitif3.

even nga pns sbnarnye, at least ta la mara2 dye. i'm sory coz wrote those thing td. just nak mletup un feeling ni.
wey2, i have my own bf la, syg dye la, ta kan la nk rmpas awk punye ! kang kapel btul2 karang.. hahaha. joke2. u have him, i know he loves u so much. and i love mine so much. u should love him the way he loves u n the way i love mine. ea2, da penink ea ? hahaha. pdn muke.

hafiz, sori terbuat korang broke up, ta de niat pon sbnarnye, lgsung tak der ! awin just nak mnta maaf.
lpas ni i'm gonna make things right again, i promise k !

MATAI

u want me 2 change, i'll change ! but i donnoe how i'm gonna change. i'm sorry coz always asked u to accompany me. after this, i won't do that again, i'll be busy like u n we r draw rite ? but then u said u dun want me 2 change, i've made up my mind. i'll change, god, one of the things i would do coz lurv u. i want u 2 feel the other side of alwina. i won't bother u anymore, but when IMU sfdm, i'll contact u k. haha. still loving him. but confused. change change change ! n i hope when i achieve that, i wouldn't sing leaving-jesse mc'cartney.haha. mcm ugut uh. i'm sorry coz always think negtvly, and always want u with me, n always want u 2 treat me nicely tenderly like u used 2. it just i want 2 lock u round my arm. but u not comfortable rite, fine. i'll give u space. i'll give what u want, n i may get what i want w anyone else. draw !

hepi new year !

2010-01-01T23:38:00.000-08:00

hepi new year korunk !

this year i think i'll be a very good girl, ahaha, ley caye ? caye la !

tp2, ade org 2 kasi link mcm sial ni, gile tkejut, tinggal kne terajang je bdk uh. ahaha. well, this one http://www.killerjo.net . nak nangis pun ade, takut nye psl.

hmmm.. ~~azam~~ taon ni,

1. nak berubah mcm mne dye nak

2. ta nak ganggu dye s2dy

3. focus s2dy ( maybe this is the 1st)

well, i think i can do this wish list. bcoz kne s2dy, then i'll be keep myself busy busy and busy.

wey2, rse mcm takut la 2010 ni, aduish ! ta yah la bukak skola, ttup je sng. nak bukak lak, xyah xyah xyah !
kelas baru nti ta tau la mcm ne, si ena n dya ta de, even kdg2 diorang 2 mcm sengal, tp ta der diorang ta ley gak ! ahaha. sumpah jiwang ayt. tp at least acap ade ! klu dye ade pon nape ? ala bia la, dye ade ok la ckit. ckit ! then qis pun ade un. hmmm.

i wanna be a gud girl this year, yet not so neardy. nak enjoy gak kdg2 uh. best3.

haaaaaaaa ! 1.1.2010 at 2 or 3 a.m, rmai la org bru alek dr party. jln senget bengot dow diorunk ! takut tgk. FYI alwina ni ta pegi ea. hmmm. ape lg nak tulis pun ta taw. nti2 la tulis. daaaaaa

no negtv thought anymore

2009-12-20T08:22:00.000-08:00

today i'm happy, n won't cry tonite.
he's voice yesterday made all of my negtv thinking flew away.
but he asked me the other one. of coz the answer will always be MNE ADE !
and he didn't believe me. i told him again and again and again, felt like want to pinch him !!
grrrrrr. GERAM GERAM GERAM !!

guess what, he told me " perempuan klu normal msti ade 2 laki. xkan ade satu je, msti ade 2 punye "

i replied " mne ade mcm 2. sorang je ckup. klu mcm 2, i bkn pompuan normal, i ta normal. u gtau prempuan mne yg ade 2 laki ? "

he answered "klu ta normal, mksudnye ade 3 laki ! kwn i kat cni smue ade 2 laki. i nak tau sape yg sorang 2. i nak gtau yg dye 2 klh, i yg mng. u gtau je"

then the argue kept on going, lame gak la ! dye 2 un..

lps 2... i tortured him. pdn muke dye ! muahaha. about 4 o'clock, he told me he already sleepy, i told him ' jgn tdo !' ta kasi dye tdo. yerla, mne ley tdo, tmn la org un. ape la dye ni. lps 2 dye ikut je ckp. hihi. gud boy gud boy. <3 dye. after that, he told me he sleepy again, can't hold on, still ta bg dye tdo. lps 2 ckp punye ckp, ley lak dye t'tido. lps 2 tjage alek, lps 2 dye minta maaf la. maafkan la un, mmg dye da nantuk sgt. then sambung ckp ckp ckp, dye t'tdo lg. then dye bangun balek, dye minta maaf. dye kate kali ni btul2 dye ta nantuk pon. i shut up for a moment, then suddenly i cried. i thought, isn't there anyone in this world can accompany me no matter what ? i noe i'm a drama queen at that moment, nape nak nangis lak un ? gembeng dow dak alwina ni. kan kan kan ?

but, as usual, i cried in silence. make sure he did not hear it. just silence all we can hear at that moment.

then he asked me " u nangis ea ?"

i said " mne ade. ta la "

he said " u nangis ke ? "

" ta la. xder pon "

" u ni tipu i la. u nangis. u jgn la nangis, i kan ade. ta suke la mcm ni. tipu i. "

i think that time he was angry with me.

" jgn nangis, i kate jgn nangis. "

" mne ade nangis "

"i tau. u jgn nangis. jgn ! jgn la . "

then i was shocked. sbb slalunye klu mnde ni jd, dye pujuk uh. tp kali ni dye mara au. ta sdey tau, tp mcm bahgie lak rse dye mara. hahaha. awin dh gile.

lps 2 ta nangis lg. lps 2 ade la bla bla bla balek.

lps 2... tgn dye sakit, then.. i think dye t'tdo balek. tgu punye tgu bile dye nak angun, lps 2 t'ketawe jap. mcm klaka la, yerla dye t'tdo un. hihihi. shumeiyl2. hmm.. then tgk jam, dh kul 5 lbey da, k la, kesian kat dye. ckp kat dye syg dye n nite2, then off the phone, he didn't say anything bcoz he already slept zzzzzzzzz. geeeeeeee.

i just want him 2 know that i really <3 him so fuc*ing damn much. and remember this. neva eva, eva, eva think i do not love u anymore, again ! u my kambeng la, there's no way a girl can live w/out her kambeng rite ? fuh ayat. but this is true, man ~

i miss our friendship

2009-12-10T10:21:00.000-08:00

When we are searching a new thing, we should really learn to appreciate what we'll have to lose to reach out the new thing. Just like me. I know i still have my besties, yet. I missed them. It's not like I don't like the new one, just the old memories is so precious for me. I love u guys. I hope the time will come back, but it won't rite. Actually hard for me to find people that 'satu kepale' with me, who i can be myself around them, no holding back, no mask. I know the we are totally different, they are more to good behaviour girls, and I'm a lil bit naughty and crazy somehow. But that brings the colours to our friendship. I found out, to have a friend, ta semestinye kite kne cari yg same dgn kite, kite kne cari yg kite boleh enjoy same2, share the differences together. God, i want to hug them rite now. I miss u girls a lot.

Suddenly i remember our dream, don't know if u guys still think of it. I donnoe whose idea this was, but i always hope it may come true. When we grow up, we buy a house, we'll be housemates and share one roof and do so many crazy stuff together. Ahahaha. Hmmm. I love that one.

I love to hug people, and not many human kind love to do that. My besties also love to cuddles2, i't been so long I haven't cuddles anyone. One of those things I miss.

I miss u girls, seyesly.

They know everything about me, how myself look like when I'm so delightful happy, they know how myself look like when I'm frustrated, sad, angry. I don't want to lose all of u girls, not any of u. I can share everything with them, can talk about anything.

Plus they do not use rude words oftenly to each other, close to never ever. That what I like. Some of u may think I like to say and hear that 'kurang ajar' words, actually no. I'm not used to it. And i don't wanna be.

Hugs and kisses from me.

XOXOXOXO

get a hot vampire chic look

2009-11-18T23:04:00.000-08:00

sape minat twilight ? for sure korang nga tggu new moon rite ?
nyway, ni bkn psl nak kasi tiket free ( byk cantik ! ) or nk ajk korang tgk same2.
got some tips how to get a vampire look. u want to look like those delicious creation, but x nak over rite ? nti tkut jd mcm hntu malaya ea ?

VAMPIRE MANIA !

k these tips may help u girls.

wardrobe

1. lace-up boots.
   (mengancam) jgn takut nk pkai. it is really stunning. better be black

2. lace stockings.
   *maybe some of u xnak nmpak bitch, so leave it. just an extra. better be black

3. sweater dress.
    this may look hotter if korang just wear it w lace stockings. better red or black. but red is hotter bcoz u dun want to look very boring w all the black stuff.

4. deep red velvet jacket.
ni lg gempak klu korang pkai dgn black sleeveless dress. ( mcm dlm pic )

make-up

1. pale skin make the look perfect.
    try 'pucat' kan muke dgn plembap or foundation.

2. bright red lipstick
    e.g. like Kat Von D's Rosary or Lip Venow V ( used in twilight )

3. eyes
    dun make it too dark. a little smokey touch may help but make sure ur eyes glow. serlahkan matamu. try brown or golden touch pun ok !

accessories !

1. choker.
e.g. dlm pic. mmm. the bigger the better i think. base on the person.

2. ring.
e.g. fang rings. mne2 pon boleh. avoid yg bdk2 nye sudah.

3. bangles
wear it more than one. lg ok klu leather. gold or black !

those who don't have and idea what this all about, u may check these pictures. examples for "vampire look".

he knows what good for both.

2009-11-14T20:16:00.000-08:00

i appreciate him. such a wise man. i think he has been a grown up rite ? that makes my love gets higher n better for him. every love needs sacrifice. every sacrifice brings happiness at the end. mmmm, probably u guys thinking of something, but whatever it is, i tell u don't make any quick conclusion aite ! but as usual, we drop our tears when doing it. he kept telling me not to cry, but i think, i heard he was crying too. ahahaha. u busted yunk ! dengar2. ngeeheee. ermm. he such a sweet guy. any girls out there, keep ur hands off my boy ! ( mcm lgu good charlotte ea ). ok. i don't know if i could wait for him for a quite long time of period * for me i think. yerla, 5 months 2 !! god. k. but i know my love for him could not end by that time. he told me he couldn't take it 2, but this is what good for both. i told him if i can't get the answer for this by today, i want him to break up with me. ALWINA ! how stupid i am. thank god he denied it. love u love u love u. his second sem is harder than before, and a big exam coming through for me next year. he told me this is for our future. for both. and after we are totally focus our mind for study, we can get our love overdose back. ahahaha. best gile. ok, i thought it was a short breakup or whatever la, but he told me it wasn't. benda ni cume kne tangguh. ta ley contact mcm slalu. hmmm. kind of sad kan. rindu.. serindu-rindu nya. heeeee. mmm. but, i have to study for my big exam, he has to study for his 2nd sem, he last sem at matrix. after that we cinta gile, gilla-gila cinta back. ahaha. yes3.
and lg 1, don't make my trust for him lower. i hate those people who are such busybody keep telling lovers not to trust and believe the one we love. i know la, i am a wise girl. those people are stupid actly. it not that we have not to believe him, it just we have to be careful, use our mind. klu x der kpcayaan, itu bkn love la ngok. better be alone klu mcm 2. k. dh abes.

nyanyi2

2009-11-13T07:59:00.000-08:00

even nga pk 1 msalah ni.
even nga confused.
even nga sakit.
ade mood nak nyanyi.
jum nyanyi skali.

i love to move their body.
when u move ur body.
u not move it nice n sweet n sassy.

heeee. cube teka lgu ape ?

k2 lg 1.

Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

pergh. bagak sdp sore alwina ni.
gaga

just wanna write

2009-11-12T08:38:00.000-08:00

it's the state of bliss u think u'r dreaming
it's the happiness inside u'r feeling
it's so beautiful it makes u wanna cry

gado jerp

2009-11-07T18:30:00.000-08:00

skrg un kite un, ari2 gado.

dh la gado mnde ta btul lak.

tp lps 2 ok, dh ok, hepi gile2 lak. u tau x, u ni mmg au.

i mmg rse mcm nak kiss u slalu, tp kdg2 klu dpt tumbuk u pun best gak.

smlm i tnye u psl mnde 2, u ckp i ta caye u la. mne ade ! klu i ta caye u, dh lame la i kate bla2!

slalu gaduh, i yg mara, ni dye yg mara. ckp org ta reti mara, igt org takut ar dye mara ?

takut 2 takut ar. heeeeeee. ye r dye mara, tp mara mcm comel jerp ! haha. jgn mara au.

tp smlm i kne mara, nangis au. sbaik ckit je. syg u la ! syg gile nak mati !

bile i ckp kite ari2 gado, bru dye sdr. u slalu ckp u xnak i nangis un, tp u ar suke gurau lbey2, dh

tau awek dye sensitif, gurau lg dahsyat2. tumbuk u debush !!!

tp un, kite gado2 ni mcm.. heeee. mcm bdk2 lak un. dye ar slalu ckp org mcm bdk2, tgk sape

mcm bdk2 skrg. BABAB dye karang .. biase dye 2, biase dye.

hmmm. ntah la, kite bkn gado ek, kite ape haa? klu gado msti dhsyat gile. ni nk ckp real gado

pun bkn. mmm haaaa ! i tau. ni gado ngade2 ar. ok la, kite pggil gado ngade2. huuu.

syg u, kiss u, DEBUSH u !!

inspiration

2009-10-31T19:29:00.000-07:00

i thought i don't know what i want.
it is harder if we don't know what we want than can't get what we want.
it is an unpredictable feel, a feel that can't be explained.

at the same time, i can't feel anything
happy, sad, anger, depressed
none of it
even love

but thankfully i got it back, but slowly
the first thing that i felt again was love
quickly i told the one i love, i love him

yesterday i knew something
if don't know what i want
let my mind calm, do not think of it
and hope i get the answer
when i wake up in the next morning

and finally i got it
i know what i want
right now what i really want is an INSPIRATION

i need it, i have to be inspired
i used to be inspired by everything in this world
but right now it's hard for me to look
for someone or something
that can make me fascinated

hurmm.. please come

i love to be inspired i need to be inspired i have to be inspired i want to be inspired

help me

2009-10-31T04:26:00.000-07:00

i need 2 study. tp xder mood msalahnye
i need some1 who can make my butt move from this bed to my chair
i really have 2 study coz FINAL XM bai !!!
god!!

ade 1 cgu hnsem ni au. haha. but not a real teacher la. he's the only one who could make me s2dy math. but rite now lain citer lak. but best klu ade 'cgu nsem'. try 2 get 1. hihi.

please!! some1, sape2 je, make me s2dy ! marah ke, pkse ke, bg ayat power2 ke, ape2 je la. tlg ea.
nakblajanakblajanakblaja

rame-rame biru itu

2009-10-25T03:09:00.000-07:00

terjumpa aku akan rama-rama biru
ketika penat menyusuri sungai
ku tinggalkan mereka terus kehadapan
biar aku berhenti seketika

yang harus ku ikut ku tinggalkan
yang haru ku biar ku perhatikan
rama-rama biru itu masih lagi bermain
di helaian daun sungai ia terbang indah

kulihat rerama itu ke sana ke sini
membawa warna birunya
ke daun-daun hijau
membawa erti kontra yang damai

terlirik senyumanku, tertawa hati kecilku
gembira sungguh, riang mengekorinya
di sungai teperciknya air
kerana anjakan kakiku mengejarnya

seketika saat berlalu
ku lihat seekor lagi datang menjelma
serasi warnanya juga biru
pergi menghampiru yang ku ekori tadi

lagi ghairah tawa kecilku mengikuti mereka
dingin nya air sungai tidak terasa
dua rerama itu mengelilingi diri
sesama mereka bermain

tapi
satu ketika aku berhenti sendiri
sejenak akalku meneka
dapatkah aku menjadi mereka
bebas, berteman juga indah
melayari masa dengan gembira
tanpa ada ganggu resah

* dun ask me who wrote this poem. ahaha. me of coz la.
why? some of u maybe tkejut kot.
haa?? alwina main ke puisi2 gini?
buang tebiat ke ape dye ni?
gaga. yes3. i'm a poetry type la.
jgn tkejut.
ni baru citer psl rame2, blum lg smpai thp jiwang2 kot.
hihi.

well, this poem is a really true story.
i've got inspired by two creatures, the butterflies.
k. mcm ni la citernye

ari 2, me n my family pegi tgk tanah kat langat
dlm tanah kiteorang 2, ade sungai
tanah 2 kire 'dara' lg la
blum kne tebas lg
nak msuk dlm tanah 2
kiteorang kne ikut sungai
so merentas la sungai ramai2
(ceh, mcm dlm citer lame2 lak un)
lpas 2, awin jumpe sekor rame2 ni
cantik sgt wrne dye
wrne biru
wrne fevret awin
awin mcm kne pukau
ikut je dye
family awin smue dh jauh pgi depan
awin tgk je
unfortunately ta bwk cam
x, boleh kat-cha rite
lps 2, mcm 2 la citer nye
bce la poem 2 klu nak tau ea
toodles

hepi. ku gumbira

2009-10-19T01:23:00.000-07:00

sosososososo happy!!
my adrenaline is popping out rite now
ahahaha
yeayeayea!! esok dye alek
dye alek. best nye rse
i dunnoe la apesal rse best hepi giler nak mati
hey!!!
of coz la hepi, my bf nak balek.
god, i hope he'll be safe during his journey.
syg dye weeeeeeee
hik3. gile sudah
he's the one who knows how to make me go UP ->
when i'm down.
he's my brightest sunshine ever during the day !
and my sweetest lullaby during the nite ! :D
wanna cuddle2 him

i'm irritated

2009-10-16T06:35:00.000-07:00

attention

SYED MUHAMMAD DANIAL is so fucking irritating person.
dye 2 dh la mcm sial, bega, poyo, buat citer mnde ntah.
fortunately ta der prempuan sangkut kat dye, klu ade, sian la ko prempuan.
dye 2 tah ape2 la wey.
sial!!
aq ta ngaku jd kakak ko wey
geli argh bodo
gosh!!! terseksa aq wey dgn family aq
euwww. nak ckp family pun aq rse mcm ta sanggup

* puas hati

for u FIQ

2009-10-15T05:29:00.000-07:00

gosh!! nape aq asyik pk psl kau jerp.
aq benci kau la
i've cried for u for one whole year
each nite my eyes dropped tears.
i hate u so much.
every moment i think about u, i keep telling myself u do not care for me, i'm nothing for u, neva be someone for u, someone special, Never!!
i dun care each word u have been told me, or the words that will come from u,
i still hating u.
tp tibe2 aq igt yg kau ta pernah luke kan hati aq dlu, kau selalu ade utk aq, aq igt semue psl kau.
damn alwina stop it !!
i know that both of us didn't ask for this, but can u just at least try??
don't u know what i've done for our relationship 2 go further?
don't u know how much i've done??
have u ever think?
u just waited there, what??
do u think it can be done with only one person?
i know my friends always told me that u are innocent, and a true lover
i admit, that u are.
but, my heart already closed for u. there isn't any space for ur name anymore.

i have found someone that really made for me.

now he is more important to me that u could never reach that level.
i love him so much.
he has cured the cut that u have done.
he gives me hope.
he gives some effort, not like u coward!!
although he also made me cry, he quickly
dried the tears.
i love him!! he is way much better than u !
rite now i just want to focus my thinking and heart just for him ok !

fall to pieces ( i miss my lamb )

2009-10-09T09:04:00.000-07:00

I looked away
then I look back at you,
You try to say
the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way
I'd never get over you,
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything... Everything.

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it

'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you...

i hate u

2009-10-07T07:03:00.000-07:00

i hate you.
aq benci kau.
berhenti buruk2 kan dye.
he neva do anything wrong
i dunnoe why do u hate him so much
but it makes me hate u much more
i really2 hate u
igt time kiteorang perli2 kau?
well, u deserve it

and this is for u people
neva talk bad bout my beloved one in front of me
neva make story bout him
if u guys want to tell some bad news
give the evidence 1st
not like that man
who talks trash
he just collecting sin
fitnah memanjang
bdasar kan ape ta tau
i hate u 10000+++
i'm done here

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2009-09-23T03:01:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya
to all muslims

agak terlambat la ek nak wish raye ni, yerla coz raye ta ley on9 la. bz shial. actly ta la, bkn byk tlg pon. hik3. well, korang dtg la umah. ley dpt duit raye, abes kan je duit encik syed 2(my dad). ahakz! but don't claim to me for duit raye! saye still bdk skolah> anda yg harus memberi aite! memberi lg bagus dr menerima. ceh wah!! bagi2.

hurm. nak gmbar raye?? still working on it. sorry la coz byk tolak permintaan yg nak bergambar dgn awin tym raye, bkn ape, i MAHAL ok, no free shot ok!! ahakz! JUZ KIDDING k. nti kite ka-cha same2 k. juz want the shot to be perfect. ceh wah !

Raya Journey

k. i celebrated 1st raya at melaka, my mom's side. well, somehow this raya not so happening as last year, hurm, dunnoe why. but fun gak la. then, mlm pertama raya, we went to kak nurul house at bp. coz my tuk ajis baru je klua ospital, dye sakit. but i respect my tok ajis la. even sakit2, still kuat k. no bebel2ing. U ROCK TOK JIS. hik3. bile smpai je sane, my uncle nasir's family n nek ani's family dh ade. yerla, kiteorang smpai kul bape ntah, dh mlm giler.

then, duduk2 la dgn my auntie2, chatting2. after that, auntie nurul, izan n ros nak g hang out lepak2ing mne ntah. i wish to join, but i noe the answer from encik syed is NO!! so.. phm2 je la. lg pun awin pkai jubah arab 2, ta bwk casual cloth, xkan la nak lepak mlm2 pkai jubah. dh mereng ke ape rite? ahaha. so just tinggal me n aunt shaf je anak dare kat umah( ami nasir da balik la)

hurm. about 1am lebey 2, curi2 amik fon mama, nak kol my yuyunk. so, bbual la dlm blik aunt nurule 2. 30 min lps 2, balik pun ank dare 3 org yg kluar td. i'm not sure what time was it. but mmg lambat la. diorang pun gathered kat dlm blik kak nurul, yerla, nak gather mne lg kan?

time nga ckp2 ngan mizie, my aunt camilia said "klu tgk dlm blog awin, semue citer psl bf je. citer psl kiteorang lgsung xder."
then kak nurul ckp lak " ha'a. ape punye ank sedare la"
hik3. so, rite now ade kan citer psl korang. neva forget u girls la. bangge ta name msuk dlm blog ni? bangge2?? bangga la kan. ngeee heeeee.

k. bual2 ngan bf kuh, aunt izan lak nak ckp dgn dye. so, i passed the phone to her. aunt izan, pun ckp la "hello", then maybe my bf jwb "mmm??" something like that la. lps 2 trus aunt izan asked me, "nape bf ko suare steam huh?" alamak!! mmg suare dye mcm 2 la. tp btul gak, my aunt izan was right. hik3. so skrg ni aunt gelar dye as bdk steam jgn marah ea kambeng. then she passed the phone to aunt nurul, dye 2 pun just giggle la, hurm. then pass balik kat awin, awin pun dh hilang pkataan nak ckp ape ngan dye. tibe2 otak ni just blank. maybe bcoz ramai sgt org kot, lg pun nti mizie mcm kne buli je karang.
so ttup fon.

so, everyone fall asleep. just me n aunt izan n me still awake. i lied bside her, dye nga gayut2 ngan bf ke scandal, ta tau la. tp, yg ta ley bla nye, ley lak dye rabe2 awin tym 2. dye 2 mmg. ahaha. sape yg suke kne rabe 2, tdo je la sblh dye. ahakz!

then esok nye g BP mall. nek ani nak beli something. tp, mcm2 dye beli, spender n panties smue ade. i was lookin' for my bf's shirt, coz bday dye ta ksi present lg. tp smue bju ta smart la. batal je la niat. u tggu je la present 2 nti ea. ta dpt lg nak cari kan.

well, this journey not over yet. still many to come.

HAAAAAAAA!! wait2. ade story nak molly ni.

time first pg raya, kat kampung, encik syed received one strange msg raya from my bf(dye berani 2 kasi bapak awin). the msg was something like this la. minta maaf, slemat hari raye, n byk la lg ayat dye. yg best nye ade ayat ' minta maaf sbb dh teramik hati ank pakcik( i yg suro dye tulis, dye tulis gak) ahahaha. then, last skali dye tulis ' dari menantu abah '. hihi. berani tul cik kambeng ni. yuyunk dye la. issh. mel3.

LASTLY

Minta maaf zahir batin if ade buat slh kat sape2. tp, bkn kat semue org awin minta maaf ni, ade yg kne minta maaf kat awin, bru awin minta maaf. seyesly!!

hope this year raya will give changes to everyone. a better change. like me n him la. well2. both of us are better now. cuddle2. hihi

i'm numb

2009-09-16T17:21:00.000-07:00

rite now i dunnoe, dun udrstand.

so that's the reason why i can't explain my true feeling for u.

i'm totally 50-50 rite now, either i hold u tighter, or i let u go.

sometimes i hate u, but always deep in my heart i yearning for u.

urgh ! i noe that we r not over yet, but why i feel like this?

please, show me your true colour.

if u still like someone else, tell me directly

but if u truly love me,

i'm the only one for u, like u always say

prove it 2 me.

when i asked my friends opinion, some of them tell me u r for real, my true love ever,

but some of them also told me man can't be trusted.

i kept my ear dumbed, my eyes blinded,

tried not to believe the negative words from them.

so, i really need u to prove that they are wrong, please prove it.

i still believing u, i used to told u i will wait for u if anything happens.

but please dun let me wait forever.

i'm a girl, and i also have the jealous and envy feelings.

but still, i always remember, that u never forget to cheer me up.

that's all.

our 7th month anniversary

2009-09-12T20:28:00.000-07:00

last nite was our monthly anniversary
12.9 (7 months)
i was so happy
but then he told me some shocked news
maybe not shocked enough because we r far apart
he told me he was confused
he loves me at the same time he likes someone
i didn't speak for moment
because i was thinking what 2 do
then he asked me
"u.. nape ni? ok ta?"
i told him i dun noe what 2 say
then he told me he was kidding
he just wanted to test me
but i didn't believe that
i asked him, to tell me the truth
i would be more angry if he lied
then he told this
"i syg kan u, tp at the same time i suke kat dye. i ta tau la. kwn i ramai yg suro i dpt kan dye. i klu boleh nak kan due2. tp i ta boleh. i ta tau. i confused sgt. tp i syg kan u. i nak dgn u"
i dun noe why
but suddenly my tears dropped
i cried in silence
i noe who i am
just a school girl, she's in matrik, same like him
with me, he couldn't spend much time, compare 2 her
which he can meet her everyday
then i told him while i was crying
'' i nak u tau yg u plg sweet, plg buat i hepi sgt. i nak buat ape je asal u hepi. i ta nak sbb i u ta dpt ape u nak. i pernah syg kan u sgt2. u pernah jd org yg plg i syg. pernah. so i nak.."
then i silenced in a while
i asked him
"u. i mintak break up"
then he said he dun want, i dun noe how many times he said " i xnak. i nak dgn u, i syg u sgt2 awin"
a lot of times
i heard he hardly breath
i noe he might hardly gasping for air if he was shocked
or sad
i couldn't let him be like that for any longer
then i knew i still loving him
he asked me to remember the time when we cherish each other, tym i manje dgn dye, lot of our time is more then happy. we used to make sure each time we spend together, we made each other giggles.
i let myself calmed first
i washed my face
then, i knew he was right
i took back my words
i told him, this is his last chance
he was so grateful
he kept smiling at the same time he proved me how guilty he was

well, a new month with a new story
i will just surfing my life with him after this
without expecting anything
anything worse
hoping for something better, for both

he wrote this to me

2009-09-06T02:22:00.001-07:00

*my bf wrote this one to me. only a bit of his words. he's so damn sweet. yuyunk sori klu u mara i ltak ni kat blog. U R MY NO 1 my dear mizie! actly yg ni dh lame dye anta. nvm la. comel
iloveuiloveuiloveu

my beloved AWIN...
i don care what u think about me... 
coz of this letters...
from a deep of my heart i really3 love u...
i want to be with u and hold u...
i want to gently touch your face and cup your cheek in my hand...
as i look into your beautiful eyes...
i want to snuggle and cuddle with u...
i want to rub your leg and stare across the couch as we talk our feeling to one another...
i want to hold your hand across the table at restaurant...
let other to be jealous of our intimacy and our tender affection for one another...
i want to rub your back with full of attention...
i want u to know how beautiful u are in my eyes...
i want u to know how much i cherish and love u...

i don care la what u think after read all this things...
mat jiwang or what so ever la un...
coz i really3 love u

-finish-

* sygsygsygsygsyg
kat
mylamb
MIZIE !
geish
bru lega
fuh ~

aq blasah ct nurhaliza sbb mak aq suro

2009-09-06T02:22:00.000-07:00

* got this one from myspace bulletin

Pilih bulan kau lahir:

Januari-------Aku cinta

Februari------Aku gigit

Mac--------Aku belasah

April----------Aku peluk

Mei----------Aku sepak

Jun----------Aku terkentot depan

Julai-----------Aku menari dengan

Ogos--------Aku pergi dating dengan

September----Aku lambai dekat

Oktober-------Aku muntah depan

November-----Aku jerit dekat

Disember-----Aku terlanggar

Pilih hari (nombor) kau lahir:

1-------mak aku

2-------komputer aku

3-------kereta jiran aku

4-------kucing

5-------kerusi

6-------gangster

7-------henfon aku

8-------kawan baik aku

9-------cikgu

10-------semut

11-------pisang

12-------polis

13-------buku

14-------patung barbie

15-------lembu

16-------makcik aku

17-------radio

18-------tv

19-------makcik kantin

20-------kasut sekolah

21-------upin dan ipin

22-------Siti Nurhaliza

23-------tupai

24-------Christiano Ronaldo

25-------buku teks

26-------kawan aku

27-------pondan

28-------meja

29-------orang gila

30-------taylor swift

31-------awek cun

Pilih warna baju yang kau pakai:

Putih-sebab aku perasan cantik

Hitam- sebab aku gila

Pink-sebab aku suka single

Merah-sebab mak aku suruh

Biru-sebab aku tak tahan

Hijau-sebab aku baik hati

Ungu- sebab aku semangat

Kelabu-sebab bomoh suruh

Kuning-sebab aku dalam pertandingan

Oren-sebab aku sakit hati

Coklat-sebab aku tak tentu arah

Lain-lain-sebab aku fikir aku hebat

5 love and friendship quotes

2009-08-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

What they call SOULMATE do = LOVE

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched

they must be felt with the heart

-Helen Keller

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage

-Lao Tzu

The first sigh of love Is the last breath of wisdom.

-UNKNOWN AUTHOR

Love is like swallowing hot chocolate.

Before it has cooled off.

It takes you by surprise at first,

But keeps you warm for a long time

-UNKNOWN AUTHOR

It's not that I can't live without you

Your gone doesn't harm my physical

It just I DON'T WANT to live without you

Because my soul will be completely pain.

-BUAT SENDIRI JERP

FRIENDSHIP BESTIES

One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives.
-EURIPIDES

Friendship is the only cement that will ever hold the world together
-WOODROW WILSON

You don't have to look pretty and be polite.

You can be urself and not worrying it.

Wonder who won't care about it?

The one who always be at your side when no one feels u need it.

-BUAT SENDIRI JERP

I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay.

-Dave Matthews Band

Do what you will, always walk where you like, your steps, do as you please

I'll back you up

-Dave Matthews Band (i'll back you up)

urm. for u girls n guys !!

2009-08-27T06:09:00.000-07:00

well, this one is specially for my girlfriends n 'boy-friends'. dun think i juz 4get u girls la. i'm still the same alwina who really loves her friends sfdm. ok la. maybe i talk to much bout my bf but it doesn't mean i dun open my eyes 4 u guys. i still loving u guys so much la.

i miss the time when we havin' fun like go to the bathroom and get our school uni soaked and wet n searchin' for trouble and such la.

then i rmember when we were in primary school we used to hang out at school stairs and skip the class. we were quite noty rite, but all of us got really gud results aite. if i'm not mistaken, 3 of us got 5As, 2 got 4 As n another 2 got 3As. then we guys enjoy it. the last day of school, u girls came 2 my house and make a boost up in my room. ahaha. ade tym semua jatuh katel ramai2, ta ley bla tul. lps 2 tym naik beskal kat jln besar, leh lak sorang 2 jatuh beskal tgh2 jln. i think ade org hon tau. si ank buffalo jatuh!!

ouh! that is the best tym i've ever experienced w ma frends

ade tym 2 patutnye duk dlm klas, tp kiteorg bored, g la blik seminar. ade mnde2 music ctu, so kiteorg juz buat bsing la. then tibe dnga ade org kat luar pintu, so smue rmai2 nyorok bwh meja guru. bajet cam diorang ta nmpak la nti. then bdk senior(boy) msuk. bdoa la bia diorang kluar cpt. lps 2 one of my friends rse mcm ade bnde cocok2 kat bntot dye. tgk2, rupenye senior yg ccuk pkai pmbaris pnjg. ade ruang kat bwh meja guru 2. ape lg, semue bgun then lari cpt2 kluar pintu. ahahahaa. maybe kiteorg 5-7 org tym 2. seyesly, couldn't stop laughin' ble igt balik.

ok. this is my VVIP people (still contact or dh ter-lost contact)

wawa( ahaha sje je ltak name ni, ta pnah pun pggil dye cenggini)
feza (grr. kinda brutal)
dena (ank buffalo gebu. tp skunk dh slim. tetap cun putih. weewiit)
miza ( aaaarrr. haaa. gelak dye power, bukak mlut tp ta kluar suare)
fali (dye alim, jgn kcau. tp ade rumors yg dye nak jd rappers. ehek3. gaga)
piqa ( chub2 )

not 4getin' like nina, njwa, nab

k. semi lak. ( skool lame ea)

fanabawynza!!

nis nye geng, then daia, nad n ade lg la. i think all of us la. coz badge kite 1 class je un.

n si fuza(boy) urm haaaaa!! not 4gettin, those yg rabe aq tym akhir taon skola. ahaha. jgn igt aq lupe la. ta pe, kiteorg just gurau2 jerp un?? no heart feelings

I MISS U MUCH all of ya

haaaa. ade lg.

FARA!!! she really a gud fren. helps me so much in many things.
then HAFIZ. my gosh. i think i knew him bout more than 1 n half year already. her ex-gf cik wa** used to scold me. hurm. but i dun take it seyesly. klaka la actly

u girlsguys ROCK my world!!

kambeng kuh!!

2009-08-23T22:18:00.000-07:00

this post is for my lamb. well, dun say anything bcoz i'm not postin' bout u guys. but if u guys want 2 read, go ahead. i dun mind, coz this is a blog rite.

last nite on 23.8.09, he sang 2 songs for me. each words gets sweeter. omg, i admit, i already got angau by him. he really gets into me. please, for those who want 2 pull me back from him, please dun do this ea.

kay, bout the songs, he sang 2 me Ku Mahu Kau Tahu n Kotak Hati, both by hujan. actly, he mistaken the song and sang other song. than i told him ' bkn la. ni bkn lgu kotak hati, ni lgu ku mahu kau tahu, ape la dye ni' . then he shocked. he said "alamak, yer ke?? ala. patutnye nyanyi dlu baru tnye title lgu td. geish.. malu nye" that's what i remember la. then, he couldn't stop giggling n laughin'. i also laughed, but not bcoz the song, bcoz he is so damn cute when he starts to giggles n all of that. trust me, u will automatically be in love w him when u be in my place that time.

then he sang the songs. i will always be there for him to hear what he sings and speake. OMG!! i'm adicted to his voice. he is my sweetest LULLABY!!!

he also used to sing Bila Rindu-ruffedge. well, my blog has the song if u guys want to hear. that is the most memoriable song for me, it got sweet meaning n melody. somebody please pinch me.

he only can sing for me, no one else. for ur information, i'm a lil bit GARANG(fierce) w him ( he told me) at the 1st time. then he told me that actly i'm not that fierce, but has the childish chicky2 style. more likely bdk kecik la. i'm ok w that as long he likes it.

he also like to make sound effect like ek ek ek or hmmm mmm mmm(only he can do it) and sth like bzzz zzp(ouh i couldn't explain it). i like that, he also a childish one rite??

haaaaaaa. last nite he gave me one condition. if any men ask me 2 go out, he approve it. but with one condition, he must be there, that means he must join us. usually the 1st thing he will ask me is " ade org kcau u x?? ". i feel like really2 beloved and cared by him

my lamb my hero my love my gosh!!!

to two makcik!!

2009-08-23T06:09:00.000-07:00

today-23.8.09 nothing happens so far. but actly something happen. hurm let me think back.

yup, when i was sleeping, my bibit juz pull off my blanket. oh no no no. when i'm sleeping, no one can disturb me kay. then she says 'maaf awin, bibit nggak nmpak kok, bbit pikir awin dlm blik air'.

ok. i can forgive her. for me, maybe it can be forgiven and not a big deal rite??

but woah!! wait, dun think once she was forgiven, not mean ~~she will always be forgiven~~. when i go downstairs to take my things, i heard some people talking. i tried 2 catch what they were talkin' bout.

bang!!! they were mengumpat-ing(talk bad bhind) me. ouh.. n guess whom she talk with, one of my family. hey, go ahaed. rite now we r puase(fasting) , i dun give a damn. they are the one who'll get the consequences. not me

but come on la. this house not for mengumpat2 kay, that is makcik2 routine. urgh. old enough 2 die but cannot change behaviour. ouh i'm sorry if i hurt some people feeling by saying these. but let us think widely, i'm rite, rite??

if u guys want to tell me sth, go ahaed, that can solve the problem. i'm not to stubborn. if i can follow it, i will. but if it does not make sense, dun u guys think. and if i dun want 2 do it, dun push me, i dun give a damn!!

anger n depressed explode

2009-08-22T21:21:00.000-07:00

No one want to undrstand us unless the one 4 us. even friends, relatives or semua yg ada kaitan tak sama peranan mcm dia. Dia yang ade untuk faham perasaan kite, tempat kite meluahkan something, tempat kite letak harapan, yg kite nak share something without feels hestitate, orang yg plg buat kite hepi and maybe yg plg byk buat kite dduk sorang2 n nangis. the one is our soulmate, my soulmate. Yg sanggup faham perasaan kite lebih dari orang lain.

Ade yang dh jumpe, ade yg blum jumpe. some says they have found their paradise if they've found their soulmate, but actly it could be harder than those who didn’t find yet. Tak semestinya masalah 2 timbul dr soulmate, ade dari famili, kwn2, keadaan. Tapi yg selalunye dr ~~family~~. Diorang igt diorang je btul, and nak yg terbaik la kononnye, tp diorang ta tau mne yg plg buat ank dye happy, ta semestinye yg terbaik 2 buat ank dye happy. Example nye mcm yg dipilih 2 org yg ade pangkat, slalu timbul masalah takder masa. Then klu org 2 baik sgt, ea korang ta bosan ke hidup dgn org mcm 2?? we need 2 enjoy our life sometimes.

Then family slalu tension un kite dgn ckp org 2 jht la, bahye la, even diorang ta tau lg sape org tu. Ape kan lg kenal. Daripada diorang ckp mcm 2, kan lagi baiknye klu diorang doakan dye supaye jd org yg baik, n jage kite elok2 ta kire perasaan atau luaran. Doa un dye victory klu nak kite hidup sng dgn dye nanti. Nanti bile kite dh ikut ckp diorang, break up dgn dye, then kite sedih n life is nothing, diorang akan ckp ‘~~kumbang bkn seekor je~~’. Eh please la, nape kne tunggu sampai mcm 2?? kan elok klu kite just last it that way.

Psl study pulak, ade org yg ta reti agihkan mase, tp bkn semua org. bile kite dh pndai agihkan mase utk dye n study, diorang patut thank god la. Sokong la dye dlm study n jgn la putuskan harapan dye utk succes dlm study. Then lg 1, FYI, bdk skrg pnye IQ lg tinggi drpd korunk la even korang kate bdk zmn skrg teruk2. kenape asyik tgk yg buruk je, nape ta reti nak tgk yg baik, igt diorang 2 suci sgt la, pegi mati la mcm 2.

And jgn same kan semua org mcm bdk2 yg teruk, klu mcm 2, kiteorang pun boleh same un korang dgn org tua yg ta seda diri. PAHAM ta??

I think ade 3 jenis org dlm love story ni, 1^st yg ade problem disebabkan soulmate dye. 2^nd yg problem disebabkan other thing, 3^rd yg ta ader problem dlm love story diorang. Ta tau la klu ade ta yg 3^rd 2, tp mesti hepi sgt klu dpt jd 3^rd kan. Type yg 3^rd tu mesti slalu ketawe, hepi n riang je. Tym nga tulis psl the 3^rd type, I am smiling. I juz dun noe why. Maybe coz terberangan jap. Ngee.. ok2, in reality back.

Lepas 2 un ade kes yg lari rumah, ikut pkwe la bla bla bla. Ta penah fikir ke yg famili pun maybe jd pnyebabnye. Klu org 2 hepi hidup dgn famili dye, ta der nye dye nak lari.

ramadhan-puase2!

2009-08-21T08:56:00.000-07:00

well. tomorrow is 22.8.2009. for muslim, this date not just a date, it is our first day in ramadhan month. mksudnye kite semue kne puase. i try 2 be a good girl. actly, i'm not a bad girl thou. (grr.. perasan2). for those who didn't know what will happens on ramadhan(if u r not muslim), dun think it is a torture for us. actly we all happy with it. even we have to get up early in the morning bout 5 a.m. for sahur, it is a very good routine la.

after posting this thing, i want to call my lamb, but ta leh gayut lame2, nti dye nak bgun awl esok ssh. that is my routine on weekends nite.

a lot things will happen in this month.
1. ade smbhyang terawih
2. ade bbur lambak (my neighbourhood punye sdp wey)
3. and many more
4. but the best is..

I can't wait for raya-ing
YEAY!!

The Kiss

2009-08-21T00:10:00.000-07:00

*got this from a friend

The Kiss

1. kiss on the hand
= i adore you

2. kiss on the chick
= i just want 2 be friend

3. kiss on the neck
= i want you

4. kiss on the lips
= i love you

5. kiss on the ears
= i'm just playin' (actly i like that though)

6. kiss anywhere else
= lets not get carried away (ngaum2)

7. look into ur eyes
= want u 2 kiss me rite now

8. playin' with ur hair
= i just can't live without you

9. hand on ur waist
= i love u too much so can't let u go

is today cliche or wut??

2009-08-20T22:04:00.000-07:00

well dis is wut juz happen on 20.8.2009

1. math's mark failed. this is the 1st tym i've got failed even i'm not expecting my math very well though. a lil bit slow w math, not like my lamby, he's perfect on that.

2. me n my friends touch each other secret n no entry places. there are 4 of us. actly, i haven't done that for a while. but 4 ur info, not a lesbo kay.

3. a girl juz looked me with 'slecky' way, and woaahh.. she pushed me hardly. and the worst part, her size is way to large 2 do that.

and the best part is

today is my 1st time to watch a boy asked a girl to be his gf. that girl is my friend, but the boy kinda stutter ai. but 4tunately my friend and his friends help him.

OUH. so sweet rite??